The question of what is REALLY right for my angel, often comes up. It did this weekend, and it hurt! He is happier than he has been in months, he smiles more, he plays more, he loves more. He is in a good place with Peej and I. I've honestly never seen him happier, and that is why it hurts so much. Suddenly something, or "someone" I guess I should say, comes up out of nowhere, just when things couldn't get better, of course another challenge arises. But WHY now? We haven't heard from "someone" in months, and I was beginning to think, Talon might not have to go through the pain of being hurt by that "someone" again. As a Mother, of course I would do anything to protect my angel. But in this case, there isn't much I can do for now. I can sit back and watch, cry, pray, and hope for the best. The best for my angel. I will do whatever I have to do to make sure of his happiness. Be it either way... His happiness means I am not allowed to be selfish, and that I will not be. I will be strong for him and do whatever I can to make things right for him. Because I am thankful for him, because I need him, and because I will always need him.
I just thought I'd write him a lil somethin to show how thankful I truly am... It's been on my mind a lot lately.
Dear Talyman,
Thank you for being my baby.
Thank you for being my Ray of light.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally since the day you were born.
Thank you for making me smile day after day.
Thank you for your kisses and wiping my tears away.
Thank you for being strong, even when I wasn't.
Thank you for always waking me in the morning with a "good morning Mommy"
Thank you for your slang.
Thank you for teaching me to laugh a little more.
Thank you for your hugs.
Thank you for for your smile.
Thank you for being that constant reminder to all the joy in my life.
Thank you for being the biggest part of that joy.
Thank you for picking your nose.
Thank you for tickeling me back.
Thank you for killing that huge cockroach that came outa no where that one night.
Thank you for being brave.
Thank you for being understanding, even if you don't know what that means.
Thank you for loving Peej & for helping me to fall for the both of you more everyday.
Thank you for your laugh.
Thank you for holding my hand when you cross the street.
Thank you for helping me to know my true self, and for helping me love myself more.
Thank you for allowing me to be your Mommy.
& thank you for helping me to be the Mommy that I am today.
I could go on for days, but I'll stop myself.
I love you with all my heart and in return
I promise to stand by you, to always cherish you, and to love you unconditionally, as you have me.
I promise to watch over you, and to always try my hardest to prevent the hurt I know you must go through in your life.
I promise to always try my hardest in everything I do for you.
I promise to always look out for your very best interest and to protect you the best ways I know how.
I promise to always help you reach for your happiness, and try to stand out of the way when you follow your dreams.
I promise to always remember you as my little angel, even on the toughest of days.
I promise to be there when you need me, and to give you space when you don't.
With my Thank you's I give you my promise. I hope in life I can give you the same happiness that you have given me.
Forever and always
Love,
Your Mommy
