I don't know what to be without you around...

So, some BIG things have been happening in our home over the past week... I mean HUGE GINORMOUS things... Last Thursday I took some work vehicles over to Nelsons Autobody (because they are the best! And I get to see one of my best friends while I'm there). Kari and I decided to head over to a little store called Krumpets which I heart! While we were there I decided to buy a few lil patriotic nick knacks. This is something I have not done before. This is something that has been on the mind though... I've been thinkin lots about deckin out the house in Peej's favorite colors (red, white and blue) those colors are so easy to love with a man who would gladly fight for our country any day... So these colors have been the new trend in my mind. I bought a few little things and took them home, cleaned the house, hung up the few things I had purchased, and waited for my man to arrive home from work. I knew he'd be excited about my recent buys so I waited cheerfully. He strolled in the house around 9:30 and I was watching my sisters boys. He fled right past us without even a glance. This is not at all my Peej. I walked to the room to find him on the floor. He was talking on the phone, but not exactly. He was actually just listening. I walked away. My sis came to get her boys and after they had left I ventured into a room that I knew was soon to be filled with heartbreak and tears.

My love went on to tell me that he will be activated August 3rd and will be deployed to Afghanistan in November. Of course we cried, and held each other for hours. I can't remember ever feeling such a pain in my heart. This pain jerks at the heart from time to time now. There are so many mixed emotions going on in our minds. I'd like to share him, but of course I want him here! I want to be selfish and pack him up and drive him to Canada, but he'd never allow it! And I'd never actually do it... I'm proud of my man! He is the brave and the bold! Much braver than I have ever given him credit for. He makes me strong, he makes me know it is going to be ok. And I really do know this.

He will be able to come home while he is activated in the states, for Maternity leave! :) Nothing makes me happier than to know that he will get to see his baby boy. Tres will almost be a year old the next time his Daddy holds him. That really jerks at the pain. But we're ok. We have to be ok. We are thankful for the time we get to hold each other, and we are filling every minute up with happiness. We are busy preparing mentally, physically, and spiritually. (He's doin most of the physical part) We've been busy planning... Planning a lot. There is much more to this story... But it will have to wait. We are happily in love. I couldn't ask for a better man. What doesn't kill us will only make us stronger. Part of me is going away, but I know he will return and everything IS and WILL be ok.
his fav!


Now I'll do my duty and be the most supportive wifey that I can be! :)