to think.
to breathe.
to just be.
but sometimes i just have to... there comes a point when hopefully every person can look inside. i must seek deep, deep inside myself to see things that i never really wanted to see. Sometimes it's too difficult, sometimes it hurts too much, and sometimes you need a little help. Sometimes you need something much stronger than you, someone much more powerful, someone much wiser, and loving than you. than, you take a step back and allow that someone or something to show you the way. I asked God for a little help, and i'll spend eternity saying my thank yous... but, it is me who has decided to make the change.
i've made a promise with myself to be much more honest with the one who matters most. myself. if I don't take control now, i never will. it's time to be stronger, wiser, and more loving... it's time to love me, it's time to change. for things that are much greater and much more important than pride and stubborness.
step # 1 forgive myself and others.
6 comments:
WOW! That was amazing! You are truly amazing!!
I love you babe.
Babe this blog is you! I just read both of your blogs and this one is all you!! and your right you do have to be content with yourself and love yourself to be happy! But im going to be honest, i feel like your last blog is way to much worry! why do you care so much about those "things".... maybe i just dont get that blog and what your trying to say... but it seems as if you care way too much about what other people are doing and when in reality all that matters is you... Maybe those people worked their asses off to have what they have and you just think they are trying to be like "look at me look at me!" But please enlighten me if i have taken your last blog in the wrong way... regardless, i love you for you! :) Happy monday
love!!! No, you are totally right about my last blog! I was hypocritical and very judgemental! I've realized a lot latley, and I am not jealous of others and sometimes I do think people flash their shit a little too much to the ones they really could care less about, but that's ok. It's not my place to care so much, and it just shows how much I really do care. I care a lot... About everyone, about how others are feeling, and how they are acting. This world is a pretty cold place sometimes, and with everything going on in my life, and me feeling like people don't understand or really care, I was feeling a little resesntful... I let losing everything get the best of me (my heart) I got down and depressed and really hurt... But I'm jumping back into McKenna's old self and I promise to be the best I can be from now on. Sorry if that post rubbed ya in the wrong way... It's been rubbing me the wrong way ever since I wrote it. Love you always and forever. Thank you for always being here!
Can I help assist you in impact.. You have the right ideas and thinking, now you just need the tools. Impact is amazing. It is one of the most awesome experiences in my life and I know the same goes for a lot of others who have had the oppurtunity to go .....! You would love it............!
I do have the right tools and mind set, I always have... The rough spots in life have blurred that mind set until now. My son, my life, and everyday trials are my impact, and continue to be.
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