live & let learn.

do you ever feel misunderstood? so different from everyone else? just so out of place and awkward? I've had this feeling for the past few weeks. I know why, but you don't. this awkwardness is hard to swallow. things change, people change, people grow, we grow when we are ready to grow, and at a different pace than others. we are all different, none of us better in most aspects than others. we all make mistakes, some worse than others. we all live and learn. I think there is this transition from teen years to adultish years where you just have this huge realization of your life and where it's headed... and you kinda FREAK. life is hard... I've literally helped support my family since I was 15 years old... support a lot. in other 3rd world countries such a thing is completely normal. NORMAL, God I feel horrible for kids that know nothing else. and their lives make it hard for me to bitch, but also very appreciative of this hard but wonderful life I have. responsibility is difficult, and sometimes I just wanna give up... but I haven't, and I wont. giving up is the last thing I would ever do, but only because of my Ray of light. my little sunshine... Nothing makes me stronger than him. but it's still hard... I know you know it's hard. it's hard for everyone.. they say the sun will come out tomorrow, but it's always gone in a flash. I could be the happiest person alive one second, and than my whole world could fall apart the next. I'm happy, I really am... I just wish it wasn't so hard. and there's my problem, I wish too much.