rant.

I've not been in much of the mood for anything lately. I wake in the morning, shower, sit there, think about crying,(because a release of hormones always seems like a good idea), get up, feel sick, lay in bed wet & naked, eat a breakfast prepared by dream man, stare at my zit face that I'd rather chop up than try & fix for the day, once I get around to fixing myself as adequately as possible, I'm off to work. Than at work I sit... sit... sit.... I think about blogging, read up on momlogic, talk to my breastest friend Cass through the annoying world of facebook, than daydream about lunch, eat, talk to Cass some more, sit some more, daydream about dinner & hope I'm feeling up to eating it, than say goodbye to Cass, and sit some more. MY DAYS ARE PATHETIC! Dream man and lil man are out and about today, running errands, masking off the house, probably skatin a lil, maybe even watchin some batman. I'M JEALOUS! (I'M A WHINER!) Peej and Tal dropped me off this morning, Tal probably said I love you 5 times and blew me about 10 kisses. As I turned I thought I'd collapse walking into this building. ONLY because I miss my babies so much while I sit here and do nothing... I mean, of course there are days that I am doing something. but I'd MUCH rather be doing something with my babies than be doing something couped up in this room. I don't understand how my Mom did it? How other Moms do it? I guess hormones mixed with a 3 year old who says "Mom you stay home today?" (everyday) makes for some depressing moments sitting here in the office. I stare out my window, it's so nice today. There are white flowers blooming on the tree out my window, that always brings a smile to my face. But still, I feel so trapped. There is a screen, a window, blinds, and about 50 feet keeping me from picking one of those freshly blooming flowers... I'll snag one when I leave and smile because today is just too short to sit here and be pissed off.

GET A GRIP MCKENNA!